DJ Carleezy So Eeezy

well i was thinking for a while what should my first blog be about, and BOOM it hit me super hard that alot of people dont really know me.. I know you can say o hey i know carlell he’s from bedford and all that jazz.. but i thought it’ll be sweet actually explaining i guess you could say my life story…
So here we go on my lifes journey, it all started way back on the fateful day of march 28 year 1991 when i was born at some weird hospital in parma forgot the name but that’s the important part i was born with an inlarged heart and they really didnt know if i was going to live or not. So I spent the first few weeks or so of life all tubed up in the hospitals with the machines monoriting my heart and of course everything turned out ok as you can see, but every year i still have to get my heart checked to make sure its still ok.
For the majority of my life my mom and dad were divorce. The only memorys of them being married was some arguement they had and whatever i have seen from old tapes of them on family vacations etc. So growing up in the early years my father was pretty much my escape from my mom. My father was the coolest nicest father ever and i know everyone probably thinks that about there’s too lol. However, i grew up in fear of my mother because she didnt hesitate knowing the verse “spare the rod spoil the child”. So i would get beatings or whuppings as i say with random objects like a belt or sometimes a hanger or an iron cord or maybe even a tree branch…And doing these beatings were to show me that i had did something wrong for example i remember i got a whupping for not clapping my hands in church or not singing or standing up. lol real silly stuff or if i didnt wash the dishes or chores any little thing i guess you can say…So i grew up very scared of my mom and i still was until maybe last year, its pretty crazy….but i forgave her for all the crazy things she did and still does.
Also growing up i had a terrible addiction and her name was FOOD I loved food a lil too much. I would go crazy eating and drinking alot going to all you can eat buffet the works and you can see where thats gotten me. thank god im breaking that habit, i was ALMOST 400 pounds at one point, i wont go into too much detail but with the help of god im breaking this terrible addiction. I have been on the losing weight train and im loving the benefits haha.
So a little bit about my school life. the most i could tell you about school for me is that i hated it with a passion. I dont know why but i think it was because the kids were so cruel to me because i didnt fit in. i was fat, poor, and definatly not cool so people took advantage of me because im soo super passive and basically made school suck really bad. dont get me wrong i had some good days but most of it consists on me getting bullied, and i know what your thinking how could THE CARLELL HOWARD get bullied. i couldnt answer that question, haha, i just dont like violence or fighting, im just like that. High school on the other hand wasnt so bad but i think it was because i was on the football team, but people still found ways to make fun of me and stuff…. I had some so called friends i thought were my friends but it turned out they were not, just like everyone else.
On top of this my sophmore year my father died…Now the reason for my father’s death is a real rollercoster.. It started off he wasnt feeling too well, so he decided that he should finally go to the doctor to get it checked out. So the next thing i knew was that his ulcer had bursted and they had to do surgery, which meant he had to be put in a medical coma. So i was like ok he should be fine, he’s a strong guy. he’s my father the strongest man i know…..But that didnt happen they decided to keep him in that coma so that he can heal faster and better i guess. if i remember right they also had him hook up to all these machines you know checking his blood and heart in stuff and had him on oxygen. i dont remember why he needed the oxygen thing though. After a day or two in the coma they decided to take him to cleveland clinic downtown because they have a better facility and more air. long story short they found out that after all this treatment he had become brain dead because of being in the coma too long and he never came back.
So i took off of school for about a good 2 or 3 weeks just being all sad and depressed in stuff it was a rough time…So a few days into school this kid bryan bassett who i never really talked to alot but considered him a friend asked me one day if i wanted to come to this bible study with him and i said sure and soo did my mom.. So i came out at met all these people who were sooooooo nice to me probably the nicest ive ever been treated and soo loving and my heart was filled with soo much joy and from that day on i decided to pursue coming out here to xenos gaining close relationships in the body and learning as much as i can about the true meaning of gods grace and his plans for us because the fundy way was not teaching any of this.
So thats why im so thankful to be apart of this loving body of christ which show’s love and are very serving and i just want to thank everyone for being just there for me and soo serving and even if its a little thing your doing i appreciate it soo much because not too many people looked out for me like everyone here has thanks alot i love all you guys And now with all your knowledge i’ve been giving i have decided to actually pursue college and learn as much as i can and im actually loving it thanks again for pushing me

ps: sorry about if there’s like bad punctuation and stuff thats from not caring about school but im learning, thanks for reading my blog i hope you learned a little more about me and my life growing up

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